Wednesday, January 26, 2011

I threw out my weed, my cigars, the last of the biccardi.

I'm going to face this. Who knows what caused my shift? Plaster affecting me?

I don't think so.

Maybe it was remembering Sandra, and her part in this. Maybe it was my meditation.

Maybe I've just gotten angry again.

Im hurt, hurt bad. I don't even want to talk about it.

I feel like throwing my desk around, I feel like killing all of you. I feel intense sorrow and overwhelming joy.

I can't give up on you fuckheads, you assholes you sniveling bitches just yet.

I cant run. Being not sober won't help the coming days. Plasterface has been whispering to me about my destiny.

Reach is the Rook. Reach ______


The letters scramble has yet to be solved, but Im feeling confident. I am fire.

I AM FIRE.

5 comments:

  1. @Slice: Glad we've earned so many kind nicknames. But I'm also glad to hear you're giving up on all that crap and facing your problems.

    Whatever happens, I'm here to talk. You don't have to trust me, but I'm really good at listening to others vent, if you need me off grid. Otherwise, I don't really know how to help you.

    Stay safe, I hope being sober wont be too hard on you.

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  2. You mean U WAS NOT PHONE?
    I'm sorry, that came to my mind...

    I just wanted to report back from the email front since you might have wondered if Gibbs and I still talk to each other. We do, but since you became aware of him it became more casual. Like Gibbs asking me what he could do to cheer you up. ;3 Or reminding me about posting that email with the SIRIIS LIER PARENT into your comments.

    By the way, I don't think that SIRIIS is just a typo. Gibbs never seems to make typos, so I can't help but think that he wrote PURSEUS and SIRIIS unusually on purpose.

    But I'm really bad at riddles and such. I mean REALLY bad.

    Reach being the Rook didn't occur to me before, but it makes sense! So instead of to betray Arthur, Gibbs might have meant either "He who is to reach Arthur" or "Arthur is to reach ???".
    Now it would help to know who Arthur is in King's court...
    D: So ba~d... *ashamed*

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  3. I think the letters in the misspelled words are part of a scramble. Im working on it, but I think I'm still missing pieces.

    I think the key to the blank lies in the letters.


    And as to who Arthur is, wouldn't Arthur be the King?

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  4. I mean: Gibbs had us all symbolised by a person in Arthurs court. Like me being Parcival or you being Lancelot. So there might be a real person Arthur stands for.

    Also: Is "Scramble" the same as "Anagram"? Mind to share what you have with us?

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  5. SIIRIS LIER PARENT

    R-H (following O)

    TA TA

    PURSEUS

    I don't have anything yet.

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